kafka trial...
what......wake up consciousness.....seek answers....philosophies....religions....religions, no you're not supposed to have more than one....but why not....slow...abusive....i'm becoming a slave...i listen to whatever you say...I BEG YOU to TELL me what to do....to COMMAND ME.......passion takes me away...a while....fleeting.....what's this....madness......no motivation to continue in this...work...no meaning....why...stop thinking.....3 ways....one almost impossible but HEARD of....total acquittal....finding of the ultimate truth..........second, delay...stop thinking......it never will come back......on hold.....third, find an answer to some extent......say that's IT, THE END OF IT ALL...and stop.....until something challenges me...........oh, confound whatever shall remind me.......

dostoevsky brothers karamazov
the grand....inquisitor.......................all is lawful, yes surely all is.....without god, there is no morality..........the very foundation shaken.......emptiness, meaninglessness..........nihilism..........replaced...with existentialism.... love for life. passions. no.....into philosophy, forget it! .....she, is my grushenka.......she comes back to me.....from wounded pride.........to revenge herself.........

dostoevsky notes from underground
thoughts.....lazybones.....that's what you are.......better stupid than intelligent........lies..... lazy...... self destruction.....changes in thought........ jumping from left to right...... destroy it all, out with it all......